Year 2011,I started my year with one bad and one good note. I was quite imbalanced or balanced I did’nt know. On the one side I got a new job with one of the reputed organization and on other side I was going down in a relationship. One chapter was going to open while other one was going to close. The pain of closing chapter was more intense than the happiness for starting of new chapter. I was almost numb with intense volatility in my life. But I did’nt have time to analyse the closing chapter, so I gathered myself for an unending fight with myself and I just moved on. I must not use the word moved on as I just started crawling with memories of past to unpredictable future. I kept myself busy all the times to reduce the pain of separation. But days were too long to be spent. I did my best to tell myself about all the Primary, Secondary and Tertiary needs, but I always got confused in arranging all these needs. Most of times I pretended to be happy as I did’nt want to involve people around me to soak themselves in utter grief and pain I was going through. Loss in business was also pushing me down. Things always got scattered around me whenever I tried to gather those.I did not want to give up so early. Everything was hazy around me, but I was trying my best to get the clearest view. Once again I was trapped in the fight between my EQ and IQ. Atmosphere was heating up with rising temperature inside as well as outside. Inside temperature was melting me faster than the outside temperature. Then I realized that I was very much imbalanced. I was not the same person as I was two years back. Philosophy and Psychology are not just subjects, these are parts and phases of human life. If we are not strong enough to understand and control these parts and phases of life then we will definitely no longer survive with what we desire for. All human Power and Ego is mere a fraction to fake the “ Survival of Fittest “ Thing.
Still it is an eternal struggle for a human being to prove oneself in this competitive world to exceed beyond one’s limit. If you stop or take a pause to balance yourself then others will leave you behind in that unending race. Then you raise your voice to say “Race is not ever as I Have’nt won yet”, and nobody will listen to this crap as all the participants in the race have already won till you wait for the race to get over. This is called Psychology of a human being in his/her unconscious mind. It just shows the light only when it is dark outside, till then others have already gone far beyond the limit in dark itself.
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